It has been a whole year with out you , a year ago today that you gained your wings, and my heart was shattered into a million pieces ,those tiny little shards slowly and painfully return to where they should be with every happy thought of you . However the my heart will never be whole or complete again , I miss you so very much I have a pain to the core of me always , your smile ,laugh and that naughty little giggle you used to do I miss , I miss those words I love ya mum, I miss your great big hugs the ones that I would disappear in . My world and my life has never been the same since and never will be .I would go through all of this again to have a another 28 years with you . I will always be your mum and you will always be my son ,nothing in this world can take that away . This constant pain and ache I have is a wonderful reminder that there was love , an abundance of love, an unbreakable bond ,attachment like no other ,mother and son always . I love you and miss you Sam more than words could ever express .